who cares

you can read this. i want you to.

so.  i'm on a diet, and it feels healthy this time.  like, i'm eating, just not as much.  and i try to eat healthy things.  like salad and water, and food with nutra- in the title.  like... nutragrain.  and... yeah, stuff like that.  and it takes so much effort to eat anything lately.  i walk to the fridge and think of all the effort of making the sandwich, heating up the leftover rice.  and how it's not going to taste quite right anyway.  i usually have a specific food that i eat all the time.  smoothie, ceasar salad, vaggie burito, cheese quesadilla, have been the recent ones.  and when i don't have one, i just don't feel like eating.  this makes dieting much easier. 

it feels so good to feel thin.  i've realised that i can feel thin without actually looking thin.  which is pretty much what i wanted, to feel thin.  i'm not all that pretty, being thin wouldn't help me all that much on account of i don't wear makeup or put much effort into my clothes or anything.  i dress like a guy and barely manage to shower every other day.  but i would like to feel thin.  for myself. 

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#1  04 June 2005 - 22:16

 

hey friend. yeah this is me... at my all time emoness... ^_^
you can go ahead and read it... but its SUPER emo... lol. my most emo-est feelings go here... so yeah. beware.

mywastedheart

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